Yes I really think I’ll just leave

what to do what to do

Let me tell you a thing about humanity.

Humanity is, in my opinion (and no I’m not saying that everyone should think it) the proof that God just doesn’t exist. There’s no way, if he’s as perfect as he is, that he would have created the most horrific thing ever seen. But I’m not here to talk about God.

So, humanity. You’ve seen it since the beginning each other doing WHAT ? 99 % of nasty horrible things against 1 % of good things ? HOW FUCKING GREAT IS THIS ? Have you seen the world you live in ? What matters ? MONEY. AND HOW MONEY DOES FUCKING MATTER ANYWAY. YOU LIVE THEN YOU DIE AND WHEN YOU’RE DEAD WHO FUCKING CARES HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAD ?! NOT YOUR SKELETON. AND EVEN IF YOU DON’T EVEN HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO GO INTO A GRAVEYARD WHO EVEN CARES? GRAVE OR NOT GRAVE, WE’LL ALL END UP DUST. AND SO WILL MONEY. AND WH ODECIDED TO CREATE MONEY? MEN. NOW THIS IS NOT THE POINT EITHER SO I WILL JUST LEAVE THIS OUT. I just say this because I wonder this every day and I really don’t want your arguments like nothing would be done without it. Like I care. Anyway money doesn’t matter and yet everyone cares about it, and power, and ways to just smash people’s heads or anything, crush their hopes or whatever. 

Like I said that wasn’t my point. All i see is that this world sucks. look around. What do you see? War. Hate. Killing. Poverty. Stupid governemnts. Destruction of the nature. Racism. Homophobia. Sexism. Now that’s not the point either. And you can say that I just see the negative things, but I really don’t. Every time I think like that, like I see all in black and then I tell myself I’m stupid and I’m having a one-sided view and I should realize they are some great things. And right at that moment something happens that just proves that no, they aren’t good things. Like me. Am I great ? No. Most of the time I like myself because I don’t know I’ve managed to convince myself to like myself, but I suck. I want to do things and I don’t do them because I’m stuck on Tumblr. Or because I do meaningless things. And I want to do things but I don’t even try because I’m scared. And yet I’m convinced people can do anything if they try just a little. So anyway I suck just as much as the rest of people. But that was not my point either.

So the world sucks. And I hate it. And one day you find Tumblr. And you meet awesome people, and you smile and your laugh and sometimes you have internet friends and you’re happy, and you start thinking not all people are bad. And you share things and you’re just happy together. But Tumblr isn’t what it used to. I used to look forward to it because it made me feel better but now I’m almost always anxious because I wonder what shit’s gonna happen. All I see now is fight and drama and stupid stuff like that. And I realize people are as bad in the world as they are on Tumblr. You’re still happy to share things with people but if you share too much you get yelled at. How many people bitched about the World cup ? How hard it is to just let it go ? Seriously why? The world cup made me happy, and I was happy, and then I saw people blablablalbal the world cup should be over blablalba shut up blablalblalgfkdg. Do i go saying things at people that like things that I don’t ?! I JUST IGNORE IT. Do you think sometimes I’m not tired of seeing the same things? WHEN HAVE I EVER SAID ANYTHING ? (i might have and not remember it sorry). Now you can of course say “hey it’s my blog I bitch if I want” . FAIR ENOUGH. But just no. Maybe you just don’t know what it feels like to be really happy about something and then people just can’t accept that and want you to stop. They can want you to stop but why do they have to say it ? LEAVE PEOPLE BE FOR FUCK’S SAKE. And now there’s Inception and apparently people can’t post it because some people are just bored with it. THEN GO AWAY. DO WE NEED YOU HERE? Saying you’re tired of it is one thing and that people should stop posting it is another. Can’t you see how much they loved it and you just ruin their mood by being all bitchy ? And it’s the other way around, because if I come here and say I didn’t like it people are going to bitch too. OH HEY FREE WILL, FREE MIND, FREEDOM. Now if I don’t like it I’ll probably not say it here. And I’ll also say something about Twilight, it’s certainly not the thing about the  century and it doesn’t deserve all the fame it has but is it a reason to be so fucking insulting ? People like what they like. It’s Twilight and it’s not like it’s killing you or changing your life. It’s not like reading Twilight is the same way as killing Jews or what other shit men have done. But stop creating drama for nothing. THIS IS TUMBLR. Sorry to break it to you but real life will done more wrong.

Now I realize I’m bitching about people bitching and I might be considerated a hypocrite or something like that and you can tell me that if I’m not happy I can leave. Well yes. I’m leaving. Bye. Whether I’ll come back or not is another thing. Maybe I didn’t say anything before because I could take it and I could stay. Maybe now I just want to do meaningful things and stop thinking my life sucks. I’ll just make it unsuck. It’s sad that now I just don’t want to come back because there are so great people here anyway but well…. bye.

I have a lot of hatred in me that just needs to be out.

imaginarypeanutbutter replied to your post:imaginarypeanutbutter replied to your post:I want…

Aw, too bad! Well I’ll let you know if I find a really good quality one. If not, hopefully you’ll find a way to see it soon in english! It’s so great, YOU NEED TO EXPERIENCE THE AWESOMENESS! :D

I think I’ll just download so I’ll stop thinking about it x) It won’t be the first time anyway and quality ones will go there quickly (or not but they will come someday!)

imaginarypeanutbutter replied to your post:I want to listen to the Inception soundtrack. I’m…

You should just look for it online and download it! I’m probably going to download it soon so I can watch it again so if you haven’t seen it by the time I download it or whatever, I can send it to you. :)

Ooh you’re so nice! But usually I don’t like downloading things that aren’t on DVD because they’re bad quality and it physically pains me. This is not the first time I think life would be easier for me if I was english.

I want to listen to the Inception soundtrack. I’m sure it’s fabulous. But I can’t. I just can’t listen to a soundtrack before seeing the movie. And I have no time to go see this movie (especially because it’s not come out yet) and if I even fine a hole in my precious time I am positive this stupid city won’t have bothered to put some subtitles and let me see it in english. And I refuse to see it in french. AND NOW I SEE PICTURES AND EVERYONE LOVED IT AND I’M SAD.